Mess to Masterpiece

I am a mess. Recently I there have been some challenges that initially reinforced my negative labels – unworthy, unlovable, loser, idiot – I’m sure you get the idea. There are so many this blog would never be completed. I was spiraling down to a low place reinforcing the labels that satan was happy to hear me saying to myself. This scripture kept coming to mind as I read Limitless life and marinated on what Derwin shares about his career ending injury and how God turned that around for His purpose and plan.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful and will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted will also provide a way out so you can stand up under it. 1 Corinthians 10:13.

My role at work has changed. I was the primary charge nurse in a very busy recovery room. But no longer. What satan meant for bad has been good for me. My hours are more routine. I actually get to take care of patients – which is the most fulfilling part of my life outside of being a mom to Josh & Emma. I am returning to complete my Bachelors degree in the fall.

The majority of my life the things I say to myself, my self talk, have been mostly negative – labels that I put on myself and reinforce all day long over and over. I beat myself up and wore myself out. I will not repeat them any longer. Anytime I say something to my self I now finish my thought with ‘in Jesus name’. If it is a lie then what I am saying doesn’t make sense…so its a lie satan wants me to repeat to myself over and over to tear down my faith and keep me from believing what God has said about me. This prodigal has returned to her Father and he has embraced me and put his cloak around my shoulders…He has prepared a feast celebrating my return to him. Praise your name Jesus!


7 thoughts on “Mess to Masterpiece

  1. Geneva

    Good for you! Negative self talk and replaying the tapes over and over again in our heads of unfortunate circumstances just makes things so much worse. Plus I think we are too hard on ourselves! You sound like you have so much going for yourself

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  2. sabrinaebert

    It’s awesome what this study is revealing to us. I read posts and am amazed and the different takes. Yours shows us how we run around in circles…just in our minds…the futility of it all is draining! The more we think it, the more it becomes a reality that causes us to be defeated and unable to love forward. I pray that you continue on a path to freedom in Christ for indeed He will not give you more than you can bear.

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  3. bloggerlovestheking

    What a message for all of us to learn! In Jesus name – if we can remember that it would truly cause us to pause and think of what He feels when we talk about ourselves that way. Thank you for sharing with us. Debbie W. (Proverbs 31 Ministry OBS Team)

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  4. Mary Bankert

    I am going to copy you and add that to my self talk as well. WOW… what an eye opener to look at my negative thought that way. THANK YOU for sharing from your heart. You are a gift to those of us blessed to read what you write. Keep writing! 🙂



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